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I’m a Hot Mess!

Svannah — Thu, 19 Jan 2012 21:29:14 +0000

Haha, not really. Sometime I can be but today…no. I’m doing pretty well.

My veterinarian assistant (VA) class started last tuesday. It was awkward to say the least. The way Pima works is in sequences. So depending on when you start, depends on what sequence you start in after career prep (by the way, I passed career prep with a 97% average!!). So I moved to the VA class and started in sequence 3 of 3. So some people who are in my class have already learned some things I will be learning next sequence and already know how the teacher is when it comes to teaching. They kinda have a step up you could say. In seven short weeks though, the sequence will change. It will be sequence 1 and some people will leave for externship and new people from career prep will come up. So I guess new people every seven weeks. Oh well.

I got 6 or 7 new books. Not totally sure but I know its a lot. Plus I got a stethoscope. HOW COOL!!?! I totally tried it out on myself and my cats already. M wasn’t really into having a cold thing pressed to his bare chest! hahah!

This first class in this sequence is being shoved down our throats. Its only 4 days long so that means I have a final on Monday! Totally mad but its only on office procedures so it isn’t too difficult. Material is a little dry for my taste but we will be moving on shortly so I’m not worried. I really enjoy sch0ol.

One joyous thing that has happened for me over the weekend is the fact that I finally got approved for a refinance on my car! No more ex husband drama. Last week he sent me a text stating that I had til the first of February to get the car out of his name or he was taking me to court. At first I was so hurt for the fact that I would have to put off on the house/home loan buisness for a hot minute to take care of this. But lucky the bank approved me for a car loan so as soon as thats done I can work on repairing my credit some more and get back out there with finding a home. I’m keeping my fingers crossed for 2012 to be my year. Or for at least more good then bad things anyways!

I’m just sooo glad to finally get the last bit of reason for the ex to contact me out of my hair. He will never have another reason to contact me.

Other than that, I’m struggling to get over a stupid sinus cold. Runny, stuffed nostrils are never fun!

New Year.

Svannah — Tue, 03 Jan 2012 22:15:14 +0000

Happy New Year! I’d say it has been a long one. A lot has happened thats for sure. 2011 started out rocky and it only got worse. It wasn’t until May when I finally got the courage to change my life for the better. I left an abusive husband, I got my first apartment, I was doing things on my own, and having a good time. I was happy but lonely. The end of June, I met M. And ever since then, my life has been getting better and better. He is an amazing man and he keeps proving it to me every single day. In one week we will have been together for 6 months. I can’t wait to see what the next six months holds for us.

M and I ringing in the New Year at Copperhead.

Now, on to the goals that I have set for myself. I didn’t set any resolutions because they are always failed attempts but goals are better.

Goal #1: Get out of debt (that’s a big one)….still an original goal. This isn’t going to change but as 20 December 2011, I made my last payment on a personnal loan. Thats one big debt completely paid off!! Only a few more things and if I’m smart about it I can get a huge chuck taken care of by July.
Goal #2: Buy a house. This is actually in the process. I’m working with my mortgage lender to help correct my credit score in order to use my VA Loan benefit. Hopefully at the end of the month, M and I will be choosing a place to buy.
Goal #3: This was the start school goal…..and I already did it. I started back in November and I’m having a great time. It’s very accelerated but I like learning. Two more weeks of the Career Prep course and then I’m off to the veterinarian assistant course!! I’m so excited. So, my goal here is just to stay on top of it, get good grades and graduate in July 2012.
Goal #4: Don’t rush my new relationship with M. Just enjoy his company and see where things fall for us. And its getting better and better each day! He is quite the guy!
Goal #5: Be happy in my career field. Still want this badly. I’m not happy at my job anymore. Thats why I can’t wait til June. I’ll start my externship then and I can quit working here!
Goal #6: Get a new tattoo. It doesn’t matter how big or small but I really want to get a new one. Its been two years now since my last one on my shoulder. I feel that it’s time.
For now though, I’m happy.

Svannah — Tue, 20 Dec 2011 23:26:31 +0000

Yep. I gots a new look. Well not totally but I like it. I got maybe an inch chopped off my hair to get rid of all the dead, dry stuff, then I dyed the under part a lilac purple color. Also razored my bangs to make them more choppy looking. I guess you could say I am trying to get that emo/scene style of hair.

My ears are gauged out to a double zero and I have a new dermal piercing on my chest. <3 I like it.

Now I’ll I need is to get with a tattoo artist and schedule some appointments. Its been over 2 years since my last tattoo. I’m very, very out of date. I believe the next one that I’m going to get will be “limited edition” written in Hangul (Korean) on my left arm, kinda on the side of my wrist. And I’m thinking of getting the word “rawr” on my other wrist….or somewhere. Rawr because that’s “I love you” in Dinosaur. I think its the cutest. I don’t know yet though. We will see what happened in the next couple of months.

Life is really moving for me.

Stress

Svannah — Wed, 14 Dec 2011 15:50:51 +0000

My life is a little stressful at the moment. But I’m sure its healthy stress. This is the last week of school before the holiday break but we are cramming so much in. I have a huge test at the end of the week that I’m worried about. I hate how I have so much to study for but half isn’t even on the test. I think that’s one of the worst things.

But, not only school, I’m working on getting my credit decent enough to buy a home. I’m really hoping things work out for me to close and a place by the beginning of March. House buying to incredibily stressful. I just hope its a lot easier than the last time I tried.

December

Svannah — Thu, 01 Dec 2011 22:00:53 +0000

Yay, its almost Christmas!!! It has been snowing off and on today but nothing that has stuck. I wish we could get 2 feet of snow and just stay for a while. All the brown and leaveless trees without snow looks nasty.

Made some progress today. I set up a payment plan for the month to tackle the rest of my personal loan. It will be fully paid off on the 30th of this month. Woot! Only took me two years, geez. But I’m glad thats another thing off my report. That means, I can start really looking for a house. Or at least get prequalified. I’m excited. I hope everything goes well and I can actually get something at least before June.

Christmas gifts are under way. I just ordered my biggest one. I really hope M likes it. But I’m sure he will. How can he not?? He will probably get it early though which is ok with me. Now just to figure out the last few gifts I’ll purchase.

I really hope M and I can get a tree up. I’m worried about the cats trying to climb it. I’m sure they will but I still want a tree bad. What’s Christmas without a tree?

Unexpected

Svannah — Mon, 28 Nov 2011 16:19:00 +0000

Over the weekend I had an unexpected visit from an old flame. I found it quite odd that after 2 years he wanted to reconnect.

Even thought I’m in a great relationship now, he did make me think “what if”. And I really hate thinking that. It makes you question everything you have going for you even if you know its right for you right now.

Regardless though, if I was single or not, how does he expect me to have a long distance relationship if we both know thats what killed us? I refuse to do that ever again. I know its not for me…why put me in that situation where I can just fail again? Or how about the fact that he is/was married? I’m not going to be a homewrecker if he is married still. Its just not going to happen. And lastly, he might have a kid. I know for a fact I will NEVER get involved with a man who has a kid. I have learned that I end up becoming the man’s second priority while I make him my first. Its unbalanced. It doesn’t work. Nor can I connect with a kid thats not mine. I have learned all this from experience. Its just who I am.

So I am thankful that he has stopped emailing me telling me to keep an open mind and that he will always be the best for me. That chaper of my life has finally closed. He hasn’t been replaced because he can’t. He is one of a kind, but my love for him has finally found a love for someone else.

I hope he can find someone who can replace his love for me as well. We made great memories, but that’s all that is left for us. Memories.

It’s been a good few months.

Svannah — Sat, 26 Nov 2011 04:31:16 +0000

It’s been a couple of months now. I can happily report that my life is going great. I quit my second job in October. It was getting to be too much and I didn’t need it considering that M and I moved in together.

M and I are doing well. He is quite the amazing guy. Just today he took me to Jarrad’s Galleria so he knows what type of ring I like when the time comes. We have discussed marriage, but my rule this time around is to wait a year since we met. This way we are both sure we are making the right decisions. I would hate to end up divorced again for the third time.

We are even going to start looking at houses to buy. I’m ready to have my own house finally. That’s going to be super exciting when it finally happens.

Also, I started school two weeks ago. I’m pretty busy now working 40 hours a week and going to school Monday thru Thursday night but it’s worth it. I really need a job that I’ll love to go to every day. I started the vet assistant course. School actually fun as well. Homework isn’t bad yet but meeting new people and learning new things is always awesome.

So, as it looks, my goals are slowly being accomplished or at least started. Even a majority of my debt is down.

I just hope the rest of 2011 goes smooth and happy.

Happy Thanksgiving!

Goals Update

Svannah — Sun, 18 Sep 2011 18:47:29 +0000

I was looking through old posts from this year. Out of the handful I did post, a lot where not all that great. Then I noticed my post from January about goals for 2011. They have certianly changed or have been pushed to the side.

So since 2011 is almost over and my life has changed, I have decided to revise my goal list to reflect where I am now.

Goal #1: Get out of debt (that’s a big one)….still an original goal. This isn’t going to change.
Goal #2: Buy a house
Goal #3: I’m going to go to school to be a vet technition. I found a wonderful school and cannot wait to attend. I probably won’t start til early next year.
Goal #4: Don’t rush my new relationship with M. Just enjoy his company and see where things fall for us.
Goal #5: Be happy in my career field.

Really thats it right now. My life feels very hectic, I have something things on my plate but for now….those are my large goals for the next few months to a year. I will try to come back in January to see how I have progressed and see what my new goals might be.

In A Better Direction

Svannah — Tue, 13 Sep 2011 16:48:58 +0000

In the last 5 months my life has changed a lot. It has all been for the better too.

In May, I left my emotionally, mentally, and at times physically abusive husband. I wish I would have found the courage sooner but I guess it just took time and finally seeing for myself how wrong it was for me to stay.

From there, I started living on my own for the first time. At first, it was hard. Finances weren’t the best and I had nothing to funish my new apartment. With the help of friends, I was able to acquire some free things to make my home more of a home.

Then things got lonely. I don’t do well alone. So I started dating. Keeping it casual, making a ton of friends. This was good. Then I met M. We chatted via text for a week before meeting but we clicked. I remember missing his converstations before we even met. We eventually had a fun first date, a good second and then he introduced me to his friends. After a month of just hanging out and chatting we finally decided to be exclusive. I find him amazing. Completely day to the night(mare) of my ex. M and I have been together for just over two months now.

In August, I was finally able to find a second job after searching since March. It doesn’t pay much and it can be a pain in the butt but its slowly helping with bills. I have set a goal to pay off debts by March 2012 and start the home buying process. I want a house that’s all my own.

On top of the second job, I have also dropped my monthly school payment. I will finally be a certified pet groomer. And with that out of the way, I am starting to think about going back to study to be a vet technition or a vet assistant at a local school. I think its time I get a job that I will actually enjoy instead of the two I’m in now. What could be more enjoyable and rewarding than working with animals?

My divorce was officially complete on the 30th of August!

Last but not least. I’m thinking about making gauged earrings and selling them on etsy. Again, this would be a financial help but would also be a way to do something creative again. I really want to make the most of my life and not regret anything. I want to be fully happy so I want to try whatever my heart desires.

So, I think my life is going in a much better direction.

End…for now.

Svannah — Sun, 01 May 2011 16:42:00 +0000

Yea, I know, I just don’t really feel like blogging anymore.

I have nothing insteresting to say anymore. Its sad I know.

Maybe one day I’ll get the blog bug back and start writing about something but for now, I’m gonna spend my times playing with my new puppy Ace, my rats Noodle and Moose, and watch good tv. Oh don’t forget to find awesome stuff on Pinterest.com.

Update: 13 Sept…I no longer have those pets. But I sure do miss them.